I found this today
Friday, December 23, 2011
Makeup
So this journey is about finding myself. Doing more for myself. Something I LOVE is makeup. SO I joined myglam.com and looking into a whole bunch of cosmetic info.
I found this today
and I found it very helpful, so I thought I would post it here. =)
I found this today
X-OUT
X Out Wash-In Treatment
The unique, one-step X Out™ Wash-In Treatment is formulated to help kill the bacteria that causes breakouts, help banish existing pimples and help leave the skin feeling smooth and looking healthy.
X Out™ works to lift away the dirt and grime that can clog pores. The Wash-In Treatment also leaves behind powerful medicine to help keep pores clean. Learn more and purchase at XOut.com. X Out is sold as a 30-day supply and comes with a bonus Shine Control product to help you fight oil all day for $19.95.
The reviews I have read in this are amazing!! I can't wait to try it!
More amazing test items from infulenster.com! I heart voxboxes!
imPRESS Press-on Manicure
Another Complimentary product from my INFULENSTER voxbox!! AMAZING!
imPRESS Press-on Manicure. I must say the prints they have are amazing. check out all of the prints http://www.impressmanicure.com/ I am in love with the animal prints! I DO like them. However, I wouldn't use them for everyday wear. I think they would be better for special events. You MUST follow directions exactly. If you would like to use them for everyday wear then I suggest adding a dot of glue under each nail.
imPRESS Press-On Manicure
imPRESS Press-on Manicure. I must say the prints they have are amazing. check out all of the prints http://www.impressmanicure.com/ I am in love with the animal prints! I DO like them. However, I wouldn't use them for everyday wear. I think they would be better for special events. You MUST follow directions exactly. If you would like to use them for everyday wear then I suggest adding a dot of glue under each nail.
imPRESS Press-On Manicure
This changes everything!
Introducing imPress Press-On Manicure by Broadway Nails, the revolutionary way to apply polish! Featuring advanced nail technology, you can get a salon-perfect manicure in seconds – simply peel off, press on, and you're done. There's no drying, a killer shine and a manicure that lasts up to a week! And, imPress is so easy to remove, you can change it up to match your mood as often as you want. Check out all 36 colors and patterns, including trendy brights, classic darks and animal prints. With imPress, your nails will always be your best accessory.
imPress Manicure retails for $5.99 for colors and $7.99 for patterns, and is available at CVS, Rite Aid, Duane Reade, KMart, Walgreens, Walmart and more. For a full list of online and in-store retailers, visit imPressManicure.com, where you can download an exclusive coupon and virtually try on all the colors and patterns!
NYC New York Color
have you checked out infulenster.com? AWESOME! I just got my first voxbox yesterday! I am so excited! The first thing I tried was the NYC lip gloss. It is amazing! REALLY! It is so smooth on my lips and smells amazing. I got it in NUDE it is perfect for everyday use! You can't beat it for under $5!! I recommend it! Check out the products here http://www.newyorkcolor.com/
A beauty-editor favorite is Liquid Lipshine ($2.49). It has pure pigments that created a 3-D gloss effect. Vitamin E provides shine and a moisturizing feel. The formula is non-sticky, super shiny & soft. Available in 10 on-trend shades from neutral nudes, to berries & fuchsias. Start shopping for NYC at these stores nearest you: Walmart, Target, Rite Aid, CVS, Family Dollar, Duane Reade, Kmart, HEB, and others. Visit newyorkcolor.com to check out all shades and fun products from New York Color!
NYC New York Color Liquid Lipshine
Straight from the city that never sleeps, NYC New York Color offers products with uptown style at down-to-earth prices, from $.99 - $4.99. The energy, style and color of New York City shines through the wide range of shades, textures and innovative products. NYC always delivers the most on-trend products & shades hot off the runway!A beauty-editor favorite is Liquid Lipshine ($2.49). It has pure pigments that created a 3-D gloss effect. Vitamin E provides shine and a moisturizing feel. The formula is non-sticky, super shiny & soft. Available in 10 on-trend shades from neutral nudes, to berries & fuchsias. Start shopping for NYC at these stores nearest you: Walmart, Target, Rite Aid, CVS, Family Dollar, Duane Reade, Kmart, HEB, and others. Visit newyorkcolor.com to check out all shades and fun products from New York Color!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Brain snatching aliens
What the hell is going on with me? I think the aliens have snatched my brain and replaced it with a normal HAPPY ONE!? Who in the hell gave them permission to do such an awful thing? I was completely glad to be a sour ass bitch that couldn't stand to be around herself......
OK, OK, OK! I am totally lying. I am thrilled to be in such a damn good mood recently! I have been so upbeat and positive. Some shitty things have happened this week, BUT I AM REMAINING OPTIMISTIC! That never happens to me! I have been such a damn Debbi Downer for much of the past few years. I am glad to be able to be happy for no damn reason at all.
I am a person who deals with clinical depression and anxiety. I DO take meds for it. I HAVE to. I have tried to not be on them before and it doesn't work for me. I have tried other ways to manage my moods, but they don't work. I GET SO DAMN sick of the people who say shit like "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TAKE MEDS TO BE A GOOD MOTHER!!"
First off FUCK YOU. Secondly, I would love to be able to be a happy chipper person without the meds, and maybe one day i will. But right now the chemicals in my brain are not stabilized and that is not MY FAULT. That is like someone telling a pregnant women not to be emotional.
So back to the original reason for this post. My ADD gets the best of me often and I tend to stray.
These past few days I have been outrageously stoked about life. It feels amazing. It just has me wondering, WTF. I mean why all of a sudden do I feel this way? I don't want it to end! Is it because I am starting this new journey of finding myself and realizing I really am more than a Mother and Wife? I don't know. But this mood shift and mindset couldn't have come at a better time in my life! I feel amazing!
OK, OK, OK! I am totally lying. I am thrilled to be in such a damn good mood recently! I have been so upbeat and positive. Some shitty things have happened this week, BUT I AM REMAINING OPTIMISTIC! That never happens to me! I have been such a damn Debbi Downer for much of the past few years. I am glad to be able to be happy for no damn reason at all.
I am a person who deals with clinical depression and anxiety. I DO take meds for it. I HAVE to. I have tried to not be on them before and it doesn't work for me. I have tried other ways to manage my moods, but they don't work. I GET SO DAMN sick of the people who say shit like "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TAKE MEDS TO BE A GOOD MOTHER!!"
First off FUCK YOU. Secondly, I would love to be able to be a happy chipper person without the meds, and maybe one day i will. But right now the chemicals in my brain are not stabilized and that is not MY FAULT. That is like someone telling a pregnant women not to be emotional.
So back to the original reason for this post. My ADD gets the best of me often and I tend to stray.
These past few days I have been outrageously stoked about life. It feels amazing. It just has me wondering, WTF. I mean why all of a sudden do I feel this way? I don't want it to end! Is it because I am starting this new journey of finding myself and realizing I really am more than a Mother and Wife? I don't know. But this mood shift and mindset couldn't have come at a better time in my life! I feel amazing!
Monday, December 19, 2011
Being a good parent means being a prude?
My Mother was not the best Mother. She had me 2 months after her 15th birthday. She was still young and she held on to her youth until about..... oh, I'd say about 2 years ago. So I was exposed to stuff I shouldn't have been. I always told myself, "I am going to be better than her!".
So once I had kids I ran with it. I had to be PERFECT! I became a prude.
to me being a Mom meant:
Modest Church clothes 24/7
NO going out (Not even dates with my husband)
Not leaving my kids with anyone for any reason.
Doing EVERYTHING by 'the book'.
I really became insane. Everything had to be just so. My family and marriage really suffered from it. I suffered from it. I am silly jokester. I could no longer be funny, I couldn't tell jokes, I wasn't allowed to drink. My kids had to be perfectly clean. They weren't allowed candy because they might get sticky, GASP!!!! Our marriage almost ended over it. No joke. I was a damn crazy BITCH!
No wonder I became depressed!
Now I would sell my left arm ( Not my right, because I use that one too much) to go out with out the kids, I have eased up, but I am still a bit over the top. Now listen, I am not talking down on people who are like that. That's fine if that is truly who you are. BUT THE REAL ME IS NOT LIKE THAT! I love to have fun, cuss, and say really perverted things. I'm a total dude at times. I like it that way. I mean I try to limit myself around my kids. BUT at the same time I realized this;
REAL people say "damn, shit, fuck", I don't want my kids to be shocked and confused when they hear someone say that! I want them to know that people say that stuff but it is not OK for them to say it right now. When the are old enough they can, but they know it is not OK right now. That is what I want! I don't want to raise a bunch of uptight robots that freeze up when they are out in the real world.
Just because I am a mother doesn't mean I have to go all Stepford and shit. I am not mother fucking June cleaver. I NEVER will be!
I don't want to hide in the closet, pull out a pint of vodka from my coat pocket and chug that bastard, I want to be able to be slightly civilized and do that shit in my kitchen if I feel the need. Yes Mommy does drink a margarita here, or a bloody Mary there. I am an adult and allowed to do so. I don't drink often, maybe once a month. But if I didn't allow myself to have those drinks when I felt like it, I would fucking blow up.
I love my children, but I am real and sometimes they drive me bonkers and I watch the clock ready for bedtime. Does that make me a bad Mom? Only to those Stepford Mom who are still lying to themselves. I am a mother, I'm not dead! I'm 24, young, and still want to have fun. I am learning that there is a happy medium to where I was and where my Mom was. I just have to find what feels right for me. What's right for me isn't right for everyone and whats right for everyone isn't right for me. You have to find your own happy and your own normal.
There is some shit though, that you shouldn't be so lax about, like car seats. That is one thing I WILL judge you on! That shit isn't a matter of opinion.
So once I had kids I ran with it. I had to be PERFECT! I became a prude.
to me being a Mom meant:
Modest Church clothes 24/7
NO going out (Not even dates with my husband)
Not leaving my kids with anyone for any reason.
Doing EVERYTHING by 'the book'.
I really became insane. Everything had to be just so. My family and marriage really suffered from it. I suffered from it. I am silly jokester. I could no longer be funny, I couldn't tell jokes, I wasn't allowed to drink. My kids had to be perfectly clean. They weren't allowed candy because they might get sticky, GASP!!!! Our marriage almost ended over it. No joke. I was a damn crazy BITCH!
No wonder I became depressed!
Now I would sell my left arm ( Not my right, because I use that one too much) to go out with out the kids, I have eased up, but I am still a bit over the top. Now listen, I am not talking down on people who are like that. That's fine if that is truly who you are. BUT THE REAL ME IS NOT LIKE THAT! I love to have fun, cuss, and say really perverted things. I'm a total dude at times. I like it that way. I mean I try to limit myself around my kids. BUT at the same time I realized this;
REAL people say "damn, shit, fuck", I don't want my kids to be shocked and confused when they hear someone say that! I want them to know that people say that stuff but it is not OK for them to say it right now. When the are old enough they can, but they know it is not OK right now. That is what I want! I don't want to raise a bunch of uptight robots that freeze up when they are out in the real world.
Just because I am a mother doesn't mean I have to go all Stepford and shit. I am not mother fucking June cleaver. I NEVER will be!
I don't want to hide in the closet, pull out a pint of vodka from my coat pocket and chug that bastard, I want to be able to be slightly civilized and do that shit in my kitchen if I feel the need. Yes Mommy does drink a margarita here, or a bloody Mary there. I am an adult and allowed to do so. I don't drink often, maybe once a month. But if I didn't allow myself to have those drinks when I felt like it, I would fucking blow up.
I love my children, but I am real and sometimes they drive me bonkers and I watch the clock ready for bedtime. Does that make me a bad Mom? Only to those Stepford Mom who are still lying to themselves. I am a mother, I'm not dead! I'm 24, young, and still want to have fun. I am learning that there is a happy medium to where I was and where my Mom was. I just have to find what feels right for me. What's right for me isn't right for everyone and whats right for everyone isn't right for me. You have to find your own happy and your own normal.
There is some shit though, that you shouldn't be so lax about, like car seats. That is one thing I WILL judge you on! That shit isn't a matter of opinion.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
New work out swag? Hell yes!
So watching a friend on YouTube talk about her P90X journey really freaking inspired me! She was talking about why you should get new workout clothes. A reason to go buy MYSELF something? How could I argue that? I mean, I am a new journey for MYSELF, so it seemed fitting. I ran out the door and bought some gray workout pants and a hot pink Camille along with a pink sports bra, I like pink deal with it!
So I get home and try the shit on... I.look like some squeezed a basketball in to a pink and gray latex glove!! WTF? I thought this was supposed to make me feel sexy while working out? No I feel like a someone is going to hunt me to to make cosmetics out of my blubber!! Whatever, see that extra fat roll I had no clue about will give me more motivation. So if you see a porkloin wrapped in a pink condom running down the street, smile and wave!
So I weighed myslef. Ugh 32 pounds above pregnancy with my youngest! Which means 11 pounds above my normal! WTF? why am I gaining weight when all I do is eat shit food and sit around. It doesn't make sense. ;) so yeah I want to lose a total of 80 pounds? No big deal, right?!?! Oh shit! Here goes nothing. Weigh in next Saturday.
Who the hell am I?
Random person: "Hello nice to meet you! What's your name?"
Me : " Hi! My name is (insert name here). I am Mom to Hyper activity boy, Princess Diva girl, and Accident prone boy."
Random person: "Tell me about yourself"
Me: "Uhhhh, I thought I just did?"
Really? Yeah, That's me. I don't know who the hell I am side from being a wife and Mother. I got married really you. Two weeks after I turned 19. The only reason we waited was because my Husband is 5 months younger than me and we where waiting for him to turn 18. We have a cheap little wedding, with a $100 dress and a rental tux, but nonetheless, it was a wedding. No, I wasn't pregnant. We were just in love. We had been together since 2 weeks after I turned 16. (Do the math, we got married on our 3 year anniversary. CHEESY AS SHIT, but kind of cute?)
6 months later, I started to grow a tumor in my stomach that I now call my first Son. 13 months after his birth, princess diva girl was born. 19 months after her birth, Accident prone boy was born. WTF? Haven't we ever heard of birth control?
We have, but apparently it only works if you take it and not if it is just sitting in your purse for months. Why didn't anyone tell me that shit? Damn!
We planned the first little dude, the other two, not so much. But we where thrilled to have them. I love being pregnant, and I love breastfeeding. I know what you're thinking... WTF KIND OF SICK AND TWISTED ROBOT AM I? Yes I am one of those people. The ones with the picture perfect pregnancy, that you envy so much you hate them. It makes me sick just thinking how perfect the pregnancies were. I threw up two times between all three pregnancies.
So I got married at 19 to a guy I had been with non-stop since I was 16. I gave birth at 20, 21, and 22.
I am now 24. I am getting ready to potty train my last son. And my older two are both in Pre-K. So that is leaving me feeling so empty inside. No what am I good for? The only thing I have been doing for the last 5 years is being pregnant and breastfeeding. You know, along with cooking, cleaning, ass wiping, teaching, wiping tears, and all of the other stuff that comes along with motherhood. So I start thinking. I WANT ANOTHER BABY!! Wait? WHAT??? NO NO NO NO NO!!! HAVE I FUCKING LOST IT?? Yes, yes I have! I refuse to allow myself to go over the deep end! 3 is is plenty and all that we can afford right now? So what the hell am I supposed to do with myself??
DAMMIT! I guess that leaves me only one thing to do and its been the one thing I have been avoiding forever! I have to get to know myself and love myself. I am not looking forward to that! I just seem so bitchy, who wants to love a bitchy person? Ugh!
Alright so lets see where do I start?
What do I already know about myself that doesn't have to do with kids?
Well lets see, I like to write and I am writing this blog so I am doing one thing for myself already... SCORE, this maybe easier than I thought!
Hmm, I love food!So should I eat more of it?? NO! NO! NO! WTF AM I THINKING? I am crazy mad over weight already! So I should work on getting healthy. Easier said than done, but it will totally be worth it. So lets do that! We will start with working out and shit.
I like to take pictures... of my kids.... so that wont work. Maybe I can find a new subject? I'll work on that.
I love make-up, I get to re-do my face and make you think I am good looking. So I'll continue that. I might scare you if you saw my naked face.
Reading? Can I read? Do I like to read? Well, I can write so surely I can read. Do I like to read? I don't know lets try it.
Now what? What else can I do to find myself? I'm lost already. Great. Well that list seems over whelming already. I'll just start with that.
I guess I can write about my thoughts on shit. I guess I will get to know me if I do that? Whatever, lets start this party!
PS, Ignore typos, I have ADD my brain gets way ahead of me.
Me : " Hi! My name is (insert name here). I am Mom to Hyper activity boy, Princess Diva girl, and Accident prone boy."
Random person: "Tell me about yourself"
Me: "Uhhhh, I thought I just did?"
Really? Yeah, That's me. I don't know who the hell I am side from being a wife and Mother. I got married really you. Two weeks after I turned 19. The only reason we waited was because my Husband is 5 months younger than me and we where waiting for him to turn 18. We have a cheap little wedding, with a $100 dress and a rental tux, but nonetheless, it was a wedding. No, I wasn't pregnant. We were just in love. We had been together since 2 weeks after I turned 16. (Do the math, we got married on our 3 year anniversary. CHEESY AS SHIT, but kind of cute?)
6 months later, I started to grow a tumor in my stomach that I now call my first Son. 13 months after his birth, princess diva girl was born. 19 months after her birth, Accident prone boy was born. WTF? Haven't we ever heard of birth control?
We have, but apparently it only works if you take it and not if it is just sitting in your purse for months. Why didn't anyone tell me that shit? Damn!
We planned the first little dude, the other two, not so much. But we where thrilled to have them. I love being pregnant, and I love breastfeeding. I know what you're thinking... WTF KIND OF SICK AND TWISTED ROBOT AM I? Yes I am one of those people. The ones with the picture perfect pregnancy, that you envy so much you hate them. It makes me sick just thinking how perfect the pregnancies were. I threw up two times between all three pregnancies.
So I got married at 19 to a guy I had been with non-stop since I was 16. I gave birth at 20, 21, and 22.
I am now 24. I am getting ready to potty train my last son. And my older two are both in Pre-K. So that is leaving me feeling so empty inside. No what am I good for? The only thing I have been doing for the last 5 years is being pregnant and breastfeeding. You know, along with cooking, cleaning, ass wiping, teaching, wiping tears, and all of the other stuff that comes along with motherhood. So I start thinking. I WANT ANOTHER BABY!! Wait? WHAT??? NO NO NO NO NO!!! HAVE I FUCKING LOST IT?? Yes, yes I have! I refuse to allow myself to go over the deep end! 3 is is plenty and all that we can afford right now? So what the hell am I supposed to do with myself??
DAMMIT! I guess that leaves me only one thing to do and its been the one thing I have been avoiding forever! I have to get to know myself and love myself. I am not looking forward to that! I just seem so bitchy, who wants to love a bitchy person? Ugh!
Alright so lets see where do I start?
What do I already know about myself that doesn't have to do with kids?
Well lets see, I like to write and I am writing this blog so I am doing one thing for myself already... SCORE, this maybe easier than I thought!
Hmm, I love food!
I like to take pictures...
I love make-up, I get to re-do my face and make you think I am good looking. So I'll continue that. I might scare you if you saw my naked face.
Reading? Can I read? Do I like to read? Well, I can write so surely I can read. Do I like to read? I don't know lets try it.
Now what? What else can I do to find myself? I'm lost already. Great. Well that list seems over whelming already. I'll just start with that.
I guess I can write about my thoughts on shit. I guess I will get to know me if I do that? Whatever, lets start this party!
PS, Ignore typos, I have ADD my brain gets way ahead of me.
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