What the hell is going on with me? I think the aliens have snatched my brain and replaced it with a normal HAPPY ONE!? Who in the hell gave them permission to do such an awful thing? I was completely glad to be a sour ass bitch that couldn't stand to be around herself......
OK, OK, OK! I am totally lying. I am thrilled to be in such a damn good mood recently! I have been so upbeat and positive. Some shitty things have happened this week, BUT I AM REMAINING OPTIMISTIC! That never happens to me! I have been such a damn Debbi Downer for much of the past few years. I am glad to be able to be happy for no damn reason at all.
I am a person who deals with clinical depression and anxiety. I DO take meds for it. I HAVE to. I have tried to not be on them before and it doesn't work for me. I have tried other ways to manage my moods, but they don't work. I GET SO DAMN sick of the people who say shit like "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TAKE MEDS TO BE A GOOD MOTHER!!"
First off FUCK YOU. Secondly, I would love to be able to be a happy chipper person without the meds, and maybe one day i will. But right now the chemicals in my brain are not stabilized and that is not MY FAULT. That is like someone telling a pregnant women not to be emotional.
So back to the original reason for this post. My ADD gets the best of me often and I tend to stray.
These past few days I have been outrageously stoked about life. It feels amazing. It just has me wondering, WTF. I mean why all of a sudden do I feel this way? I don't want it to end! Is it because I am starting this new journey of finding myself and realizing I really am more than a Mother and Wife? I don't know. But this mood shift and mindset couldn't have come at a better time in my life! I feel amazing!
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